I guess I am sort of surprised to hear that. You struck me as the type of person to hold a grudge.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Hey........ can I tell you something? A8out that day. I was going to explain a lot sooner, 8ut I never really got a chance. Mostly 8ecause I was too pissed at you to 8other.
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org I didn't say I wasn't holding a grudge
[Just not against her, not anymore. Because the thing is, he is that type of person. But he's also particular about the grudges he holds. His focus is cast a lot wider than her. At the people who are really to blame for all this.
[What the CDC did to them on Ajna was both cruel and unusual. Most of the time he'd find it vindicating to hear that the people who had been killed had managed to steal something back, as small as it was. But they were stealing it from the wrong people.
He runs the conversation over again in his head. It was ages ago, but it had stuck with him. All of Ajna did.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org ok
[It doesn't come off as much, in response to all that text. But honestly, he appreciates her being straight with him. It isn't often that people make sure he gets the whole story. Even if it's taken months.
By way of a "thanks", and in some of his own odd measure of reassurance—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org it won't happen again.
[The CDC can't keep ordering people to take their comrades out and expect it to fly. Blackmail or not, they won't stand for it. Not a second time.]
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Really?
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I guess I am sort of surprised to hear that. You struck me as the type of person to hold a grudge.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Hey........ can I tell you something? A8out that day. I was going to explain a lot sooner, 8ut I never really got a chance. Mostly 8ecause I was too pissed at you to 8other.
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I didn't say I wasn't holding a grudge
[Just not against her, not anymore. Because the thing is, he is that type of person. But he's also particular about the grudges he holds. His focus is cast a lot wider than her. At the people who are really to blame for all this.
Whoever they really are. As for the rest—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what
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........
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Hahahaha. Ok, point taken. I guess I'm just glad you're not still mad at me.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
You know how when we met up, I seemed distracted?
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I mean, I don't know what it looked like to you. I can only guess.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Did you ever hear a8out what happened to some of the people who completed that mission? That they started hallucin8ing?
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He hadn't heard. (Mikasa, she hadn't—
had she?)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
hallucinating?
[As if to be sure he got it right. He has to guess around her quirk sometimes.]
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Yeah. I ended up hearing a8out it from another recruit 8efore it happened to me, so I don't think we were the only ones to go through it.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I hallucin8ed a8out Noh-Varr for seventy-two str8 hours, Eren. Since I don't sleep I never got a 8r8k from it.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
When I met with you, I could see him! Sometimes just standing around and smiling. 8ut a lot of the things I experienced were his memories. Happy ones.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
It felt like a 8ig flashing sign in my face going "this is what you just ruined, you fuckup!"
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I always wanted to tell you that was why I was acting so jumpy. I wasn't trying to get out of our conversation or anything like that.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
8ut it's hard to focus when your dead 8est friend is standing next to you and only you can see him.
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He runs the conversation over again in his head. It was ages ago, but it had stuck with him. All of Ajna did.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
ok
[It doesn't come off as much, in response to all that text. But honestly, he appreciates her being straight with him. It isn't often that people make sure he gets the whole story. Even if it's taken months.
By way of a "thanks", and in some of his own odd measure of reassurance—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
it won't happen again.
[The CDC can't keep ordering people to take their comrades out and expect it to fly. Blackmail or not, they won't stand for it. Not a second time.]