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FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Assistant?
[Wow that's...not what he was expecting at all. After a pause, and with his usual amount of stupid strightforwardness—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Why me?
Assistant?
[Wow that's...not what he was expecting at all. After a pause, and with his usual amount of stupid strightforwardness—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Why me?
FROM: warriorhead@cdc.org
You're interesting. And not an idiot.
FROM: warriorhead@cdc.org
Details'll come later. I'm just gauging interest.
You're interesting. And not an idiot.
FROM: warriorhead@cdc.org
Details'll come later. I'm just gauging interest.
[Just you wait 'til the lockdown lockouts, Warriorhead, a whole lot of people might disagree with you on the idiot thing. He means well. Things just don't often turn out right for him.
The pause this time is a little longer as he chews on the concept. He's supposed to be keeping his head down, not attracting attention. But in the end—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I'll do it.
The pause this time is a little longer as he chews on the concept. He's supposed to be keeping his head down, not attracting attention. But in the end—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I'll do it.
[ He might also think that you and Mikasa are basically married and he's trying to keep you both together. But. He isn't saying that. ]
FROM: warriorhead@cdc.org
Okie Dokie.
I'll keep in touch.
FROM: warriorhead@cdc.org
Okie Dokie.
I'll keep in touch.
[...Yeah, best not to mention that to him in so many words. Can he change his mind...
Well, he's not entirely sure he didn't just do something incredibly dumb. But he's definitely curious to see what this is about, now. As long as he doesn't get his dumb ass fired first, he'll find out.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Sir.
Well, he's not entirely sure he didn't just do something incredibly dumb. But he's definitely curious to see what this is about, now. As long as he doesn't get his dumb ass fired first, he'll find out.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Sir.
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren please answer me
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
you're on the tracker please answer me, what are you doing, what's happening
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren please be alive
[ and a little later than the rest: ]
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
i'm sorry. mikasa is with me, we're both fine. please respond to me as soon as you have a moment. stay alive, eren, we'll see you soon. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
eren
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren please answer me
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
you're on the tracker please answer me, what are you doing, what's happening
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
eren please be alive
[ and a little later than the rest: ]
FROM: arlert.armin@cdc.org
i'm sorry. mikasa is with me, we're both fine. please respond to me as soon as you have a moment. stay alive, eren, we'll see you soon. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
[It's as good as a confession. About as straight an answer as he's gotten from her today. It's still not enough.
He can't even argue it. He wants to, he's angry, and she must have anticipated that from him. Because logically he knows she's a traitor, because she won't just tell him what's going on or why she did it. But it sits oddly on him. Uncharacteristically muted. He can't bring himself to properly hate her for a sketchy future he doesn't remember. He can't pretend things are the way they were before, either. Can't trust her not to put the rest of the Corps in danger, even if she may have saved his life at the drop. His hands twitch in and out of fists. He's not going to fight her. He doesn't seem to know what to do with her, and being aimless and directionless is not a thing Eren handles gracefully.]
What are you gonna do?
[Now. (They'd been ordered to tread carefully, but Annie's not the Survey Corps' biggest concern right now. A threat, but maybe not an active one. She can't do much to humanity from here.)]
He can't even argue it. He wants to, he's angry, and she must have anticipated that from him. Because logically he knows she's a traitor, because she won't just tell him what's going on or why she did it. But it sits oddly on him. Uncharacteristically muted. He can't bring himself to properly hate her for a sketchy future he doesn't remember. He can't pretend things are the way they were before, either. Can't trust her not to put the rest of the Corps in danger, even if she may have saved his life at the drop. His hands twitch in and out of fists. He's not going to fight her. He doesn't seem to know what to do with her, and being aimless and directionless is not a thing Eren handles gracefully.]
What are you gonna do?
[Now. (They'd been ordered to tread carefully, but Annie's not the Survey Corps' biggest concern right now. A threat, but maybe not an active one. She can't do much to humanity from here.)]
Keep moving. I can't change anything, so I can't be considered 'human' like you. Still, I don't want to die here, either.
[ It's an uncharacteristically straightforward admission. She visibly swallows after the word escapes her, eyes dropping to his hands. There's an edge of caution here, and of fear. It's true, though. There was only one goal that Annie could keep anymore, and that was to avoid dying alone and despised here.
She could only move forward. Any loss of momentum would be fatal, and it's all she has left. ]
I want to live, so... that's what I'll do. That's all, I guess.
[ Her sudden odd monologue ceases abruptly, falling silent as she keeps her eyes fixed on his hands. ]
[ It's an uncharacteristically straightforward admission. She visibly swallows after the word escapes her, eyes dropping to his hands. There's an edge of caution here, and of fear. It's true, though. There was only one goal that Annie could keep anymore, and that was to avoid dying alone and despised here.
She could only move forward. Any loss of momentum would be fatal, and it's all she has left. ]
I want to live, so... that's what I'll do. That's all, I guess.
[ Her sudden odd monologue ceases abruptly, falling silent as she keeps her eyes fixed on his hands. ]
You're human.
[With a sudden amount of startling vehemence. Because this is Eren. And because she's not the Female Titan. She's Annie. That still means a lot. (If nothing else, she's as human as he is, isn't she?)]
You want to change things. [She didn't say that. He chooses to believe it anyway.] You want to live. That's human.
[With a sudden amount of startling vehemence. Because this is Eren. And because she's not the Female Titan. She's Annie. That still means a lot. (If nothing else, she's as human as he is, isn't she?)]
You want to change things. [She didn't say that. He chooses to believe it anyway.] You want to live. That's human.
[ If Annie expected anything, maybe she should have realised he might say that. He really didn't remember the horror she'd needed to put him through, the pain and betrayal that came with her actions. After all, he wasn't like herself, or someone like Armin either. He didn't know how to really lie, much less live one.
He believes this, she knows for certain. He's wrong. ]
Eren...
[ She pulls in on herself, stepping back. ]
I wanted that once.
He believes this, she knows for certain. He's wrong. ]
Eren...
[ She pulls in on herself, stepping back. ]
I wanted that once.
[Sure has. Enough to be out fetching new recruits, so when he has a minute—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
yes sir
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
yes sir
[ that is all he wanted to know. ]
I hope that's the truth. Be more careful next time.
I hope that's the truth. Be more careful next time.
[Yeah, "Eren" and "careful" don't usually hang out in the same circles. And it doesn't take much exposure to him to catch on. He's got a very fierce desire to live, but it's no surprise the 104th took to calling him a suicidal bastard.]
I'm not a liar.
[He isn't. If anything, he's painfully earnest most of the time. He's fine, he heals. They're still figuring out what his limits are, the only real way they have to do it is trial and error. And he'd push past them a thousand times over again if he had to.]
I'm not going to die here.
I'm not a liar.
[He isn't. If anything, he's painfully earnest most of the time. He's fine, he heals. They're still figuring out what his limits are, the only real way they have to do it is trial and error. And he'd push past them a thousand times over again if he had to.]
I'm not going to die here.
No. But I know your type.
[ the stubborn, angry, self destructive type.
his type. ]
Just don't forget that you have a family here, and a responsibility.
People will die. Your comrades will die. Survive for their sake. Sometimes, that means you'll have to leave them behind, as difficult as that is.
Whatever happened back there could have gone wrong. More people could have died, had you not listened.
[ so its a good thing bb was around, he thinks. but he wont always be. ]
[ the stubborn, angry, self destructive type.
his type. ]
Just don't forget that you have a family here, and a responsibility.
People will die. Your comrades will die. Survive for their sake. Sometimes, that means you'll have to leave them behind, as difficult as that is.
Whatever happened back there could have gone wrong. More people could have died, had you not listened.
[ so its a good thing bb was around, he thinks. but he wont always be. ]
[god I'm too lazy to write these out
Outside Eren's rover there is a large pile of fruit, as well as several confectioneries and bags of salty snacks. There's a note too, EREN on the front and on the back:]
eat a lot and heal fast!!
Outside Eren's rover there is a large pile of fruit, as well as several confectioneries and bags of salty snacks. There's a note too, EREN on the front and on the back:]
eat a lot and heal fast!!
[WOW CONNIE this is cute as hell, what a bro.]
[He's not really sure what to make of "I know your type." Because he's barely spoken to Big Boss at all, really, not about himself. The time they'd spent together in the lockdown had probably been the most they'd seen of each other in their whole stay on Ajna.
But what follows hits close enough to home that he doesn't bother arguing. He's seen his comrades die. He understands the necessity of it in a logical sort of way. But he still hates the thought of willingly leaving them behind.
It's the last line of the message that he chooses to respond to. After a lengthy pause—]
I can control it.
[He's still sort of working on it. He'll figure it out. He has to. (He hadn't lost control entirely, but it had been close, at the start, when the wound was freshest and the anger was strongest, feeding back through the titan to a fever pitch. He hasn't forgotten Trost, hearing in the courtroom what he'd tried to do to Mikasa. He still gets angry with himself sometimes, when he catches sight of the scar on her face.)]
But what follows hits close enough to home that he doesn't bother arguing. He's seen his comrades die. He understands the necessity of it in a logical sort of way. But he still hates the thought of willingly leaving them behind.
It's the last line of the message that he chooses to respond to. After a lengthy pause—]
I can control it.
[He's still sort of working on it. He'll figure it out. He has to. (He hadn't lost control entirely, but it had been close, at the start, when the wound was freshest and the anger was strongest, feeding back through the titan to a fever pitch. He hasn't forgotten Trost, hearing in the courtroom what he'd tried to do to Mikasa. He still gets angry with himself sometimes, when he catches sight of the scar on her face.)]
Maybe you can control 'it', but what about yourself?
[ he's not sure about any of this, but it's not his place to ask--he only has his own impressions to go by. and going by them, it had been a dangerous, precarious situation, triggered by the death of his comrades.
it had been helpful in the long run. he just wonders if it'll always go like that.
either way, eren can stew on this for a while. ]
Anger is an acid. It's as harmful to yourself as it is to others. I'm not trying to lecture you, but it is something you should keep in mind. Whatever you do.
[ he's not sure about any of this, but it's not his place to ask--he only has his own impressions to go by. and going by them, it had been a dangerous, precarious situation, triggered by the death of his comrades.
it had been helpful in the long run. he just wonders if it'll always go like that.
either way, eren can stew on this for a while. ]
Anger is an acid. It's as harmful to yourself as it is to others. I'm not trying to lecture you, but it is something you should keep in mind. Whatever you do.
[For something that isn't supposed to be a lecture, it sure sounds like one.]
If you're telling me not to get angry you can give it up
[In the end "it" and "himself" are one and the same. At this point he can no sooner divorce his anger from himself than he can lose a limb. Maybe it'll be diminished for a short time, but it'll be back in full force before long. It's such a part of him, it's given him drive and purpose, and that's always been his greatest weapon. (He can't get rid of it, he just needs to learn to manage it. It's too late for anything else.) It's when he doesn't know where to focus it that he feels like he's choking on it.
Like right now. He isn't actually very mad at the instructors. But he's mad at the CDC for kidnapping and threatening people into this. At the bird things that had come and killed his comrades. At himself for failing to protect them. The CDC brass is too faceless, too far away to rail against. The harpies are dead.]
I'm not just going to ignore what's going on
If you're telling me not to get angry you can give it up
[In the end "it" and "himself" are one and the same. At this point he can no sooner divorce his anger from himself than he can lose a limb. Maybe it'll be diminished for a short time, but it'll be back in full force before long. It's such a part of him, it's given him drive and purpose, and that's always been his greatest weapon. (He can't get rid of it, he just needs to learn to manage it. It's too late for anything else.) It's when he doesn't know where to focus it that he feels like he's choking on it.
Like right now. He isn't actually very mad at the instructors. But he's mad at the CDC for kidnapping and threatening people into this. At the bird things that had come and killed his comrades. At himself for failing to protect them. The CDC brass is too faceless, too far away to rail against. The harpies are dead.]
I'm not just going to ignore what's going on
[Okay, so much like Connie's little gimmick there's a bag outside of Eren's rover. However, it's a pretty big bag of salt and for some reason or another it's spilling onto the floor.
Oh look! There's a note on it that reads: 2 credits worth of "rare" goods ]
Oh look! There's a note on it that reads: 2 credits worth of "rare" goods ]
[wow Damian get out
This is the opposite of cute you are the opposite of a bro, be more like Connie.]
This is the opposite of cute you are the opposite of a bro, be more like Connie.]
[ shhh shh. big boss is a big hypocrite. what else is new ]
Not telling you to. I just wanted you to be aware that it's a double-edged sword. You know?
That goes for everyone. I hate what's going on, but seeing people hurt I hate more. That includes you.
[ you don't always get to choose your comrades. and big boss has very intense feelings about his nakama. ]
You ever want to get something off your chest, come talk to me. People tell me I'm a good listener, if nothing else. Take care.
Not telling you to. I just wanted you to be aware that it's a double-edged sword. You know?
That goes for everyone. I hate what's going on, but seeing people hurt I hate more. That includes you.
[ you don't always get to choose your comrades. and big boss has very intense feelings about his nakama. ]
You ever want to get something off your chest, come talk to me. People tell me I'm a good listener, if nothing else. Take care.
FROM: warriorhead@cdc.org
TO: ORANGE TEAM
SUBJECT: Assignment
- You have a job. Yes all of you.
Identify the 6 weakest members of Orange Unit. Yes I expect you to state your reasoning. No I don't want to spend all night listening to an audio readout. Be concise. You guys are smart. Mostly. And while you're at it, give me the 2 biggest threats from Red, Blue, and Green. Same deal.
I expect your reports before 00:00 Day 30. Don't pull a Red Unit.
[ Reports may be filed here. As always, players and their characters are not required to participate. Yes these reports will be connected to plot events at a later date. Should you have any further questions or require an extension, please feel free to pm Warriorhead's account. ]
[Woah, homework.
Ominously worded homework. It's been hard to miss the recent Red-Team drama. Eren's still sitting somewhere uncomfortable between angry distrust and grudging compliance where the CDC is concerned. He understands that some people just aren't cut out for a military operation, no matter what it is. But the CDC isn't exactly something you can wash out of without consequences. Picking out the weak feels too much like throwing his comrades under the bus not to grate on him. So, hope you weren't expecting him not to ask questions, WH.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what's going to happen to them?
Ominously worded homework. It's been hard to miss the recent Red-Team drama. Eren's still sitting somewhere uncomfortable between angry distrust and grudging compliance where the CDC is concerned. He understands that some people just aren't cut out for a military operation, no matter what it is. But the CDC isn't exactly something you can wash out of without consequences. Picking out the weak feels too much like throwing his comrades under the bus not to grate on him. So, hope you weren't expecting him not to ask questions, WH.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what's going to happen to them?
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