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[Thank you for your faith, Mikoto.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
we're all involved in this whether we like it or not
[They're all here under the thumb of the CDC. There doesn't seem to be much rhyme or reason to the list. The only real conclusion to draw is that this is meant as a display of power. That it doesn't directly affect him doesn't mean a damn thing.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
we're all involved in this whether we like it or not
[They're all here under the thumb of the CDC. There doesn't seem to be much rhyme or reason to the list. The only real conclusion to draw is that this is meant as a display of power. That it doesn't directly affect him doesn't mean a damn thing.]
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
i could just go back to bed and sleep through what those guys got warned about
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
that's a good way to stay out of this
i could just go back to bed and sleep through what those guys got warned about
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
that's a good way to stay out of this
[Woah, are you worried about him, Vriska, that's kind of cute.
Well, she's not entirely wrong to be. Because he'd very much like to be able to do—something. Stupid or otherwise. Almost anything would be better than this. He doesn't immediately answer. She can probably feel him grinding his teeth in the silence between texts.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
you think we should sit back and take it instead
[They don't have a choice, for several already-demonstrated reasons. But it's vent his frustrations or let them crack and shatter his already fragile caution, right now.]
Well, she's not entirely wrong to be. Because he'd very much like to be able to do—something. Stupid or otherwise. Almost anything would be better than this. He doesn't immediately answer. She can probably feel him grinding his teeth in the silence between texts.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
you think we should sit back and take it instead
[They don't have a choice, for several already-demonstrated reasons. But it's vent his frustrations or let them crack and shatter his already fragile caution, right now.]
[Sleeping through it won't change it. Neither will ignoring it.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
they could pull the same shit on any of us
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
you don't care just because it isn't happening to you?
[She'd helped out with the rescue operation. But maybe he's got her pegged wrong.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
they could pull the same shit on any of us
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
you don't care just because it isn't happening to you?
[She'd helped out with the rescue operation. But maybe he's got her pegged wrong.]
[He doesn't give her an answer to that. Not a verbal one, anyway. He meets her gaze head on, brow furrowed, the corners of his mouth drawn tight with disquiet, frustration both old and new.
Then he shrugs it off, shakes away from it as if with physical effort, pent up energy. Turns and shoulders past her to walk down the shore along the route they're meant to be guarding.
That's not an outcome he's willing to consider, either.]
Then he shrugs it off, shakes away from it as if with physical effort, pent up energy. Turns and shoulders past her to walk down the shore along the route they're meant to be guarding.
That's not an outcome he's willing to consider, either.]
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
throw punishments around for some arbitrary reason? yeah, I know.
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
don't get the wrong idea. I'm not that heartless of a girl, you know.
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
I'll even confess that I have a bad temper sometimes over things like this. it's not one of my better traits, but it gets me going when I could do something about it too
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
but if I tried anything now because they don't deserve whatevers coming for them, that'd just be stupid. even a level five like me can't do anything for them now
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
I'm not a selfless hero who will risk everything I have in an instant, so I won't interfere when nothing will come out of it
throw punishments around for some arbitrary reason? yeah, I know.
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
don't get the wrong idea. I'm not that heartless of a girl, you know.
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
I'll even confess that I have a bad temper sometimes over things like this. it's not one of my better traits, but it gets me going when I could do something about it too
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
but if I tried anything now because they don't deserve whatevers coming for them, that'd just be stupid. even a level five like me can't do anything for them now
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
I'm not a selfless hero who will risk everything I have in an instant, so I won't interfere when nothing will come out of it
Edited (elaborates more on that last sentence hours later or something eh) 2015-05-08 07:42 (UTC)
[(He frowns, thinks back to Ajna, to the strange and sudden vacation he'd taken from the mission. Fallen through the ground and back to Karanese and come back a few days later. The portal he'd fallen through that time—)
As strange as it seems...it makes about as much sense as anything else. The first things that they'd seen come through the portals had been living, after all. (The monster, the harpies.) So it must be possible. As if in agreement—]
They're dumping junk all over camp. [So why not a cat, apparently. Purring contentedly at his side while Eren absently scratches its head and puzzles over its existence, Mochi doesn't seem much worse for wear for the experience, at least. There's a collar and a bell around his neck, but if there's a nametag, neither of them could read it anyway.]
As strange as it seems...it makes about as much sense as anything else. The first things that they'd seen come through the portals had been living, after all. (The monster, the harpies.) So it must be possible. As if in agreement—]
They're dumping junk all over camp. [So why not a cat, apparently. Purring contentedly at his side while Eren absently scratches its head and puzzles over its existence, Mochi doesn't seem much worse for wear for the experience, at least. There's a collar and a bell around his neck, but if there's a nametag, neither of them could read it anyway.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
it doesn't change anything. this sort of thing has happened before.
[They can and will take their lives away for nothing. They always could. This is nothing new, which doesn't make it acceptable. Just rekindles his hate from a slow simmer to a rolling boil.
It's not learning, it's a reminder. A display of power. The CDC can kill them on a whim. They didn't. That's their mistake.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
it's a threat. scare people enough and they'll do what you want without even thinking about fighting for themselves.
it doesn't change anything. this sort of thing has happened before.
[They can and will take their lives away for nothing. They always could. This is nothing new, which doesn't make it acceptable. Just rekindles his hate from a slow simmer to a rolling boil.
It's not learning, it's a reminder. A display of power. The CDC can kill them on a whim. They didn't. That's their mistake.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
it's a threat. scare people enough and they'll do what you want without even thinking about fighting for themselves.
[wtf is a level five.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
you're talking like they're already done for
[They're not. There's a sword hanging over their heads. And maybe they can't do a damn thing to stop it, but that doesn't mean he's ready to write off every name on that list as a lost cause.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
you're talking like they're already done for
[They're not. There's a sword hanging over their heads. And maybe they can't do a damn thing to stop it, but that doesn't mean he's ready to write off every name on that list as a lost cause.]
[ god eren lern2icfile ]
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
who can say? I can't. you asked if I didn't care and there's my answer
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
who can say? I can't. you asked if I didn't care and there's my answer
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
It happened with the red team failures, right?
[but they knew why, and---]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
So what's up with the apology after?? He's never done THAT before, I always thought he was the type to swallow his own ice covered tongue before saying anything like it
not that I think it was really meant
It happened with the red team failures, right?
[but they knew why, and---]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
So what's up with the apology after?? He's never done THAT before, I always thought he was the type to swallow his own ice covered tongue before saying anything like it
not that I think it was really meant
FROM: parker@cdc.org
we got orders from warriorhead.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
keep an eye on the new recruits. send this out to the others.
we got orders from warriorhead.
"Get our unit on their feet and moving.
Relay to Blue, aid Red, and let Green do what they do best. Don't let Gray be left behind.
We need to clear out asap."
FROM: parker@cdc.org
keep an eye on the new recruits. send this out to the others.
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
clear out?
[Ajna had been a gauntlet of endplanet missions. This is way too abrupt.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
got it.
[To the point. But because he can't not—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what's going on
clear out?
[Ajna had been a gauntlet of endplanet missions. This is way too abrupt.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
got it.
[To the point. But because he can't not—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what's going on
[Good question. Eren doesn't know Dagger very well. He'd gone from seeing him as an enemy to an instructor to even, once, finding him strangely sympathetic (he'd joined the CDC to save his species. To wipe out invaders,) if still very, very alien.
Now.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I don't know
[Hero types, he'd said. What the hell does it mean.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
they never tell us everything
[They're always in the dark about something. And the ignorance is frustrating. Stuck trying to find a foothold in the dark.]
Now.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I don't know
[Hero types, he'd said. What the hell does it mean.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
they never tell us everything
[They're always in the dark about something. And the ignorance is frustrating. Stuck trying to find a foothold in the dark.]
FROM: parker@cdc.org
i have no idea, jaeger.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
warriorhead said this isn't protocol.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
something must've gone wrong.
i have no idea, jaeger.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
warriorhead said this isn't protocol.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
something must've gone wrong.
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
Yeah yeah we have to read between the lines and put something believable together ourselves
[the anger just made that---]
[that was part of the point. something he understood well on an intellectual level, but pulling in emotions during a stressful moment was an entirely different story. as Eren may, coincidentally, understand. thus, it's only after a pause that:]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
So, what. Did the instructors not even have a choice? Did they have a quota to meet?
Yeah yeah we have to read between the lines and put something believable together ourselves
[the anger just made that---]
[that was part of the point. something he understood well on an intellectual level, but pulling in emotions during a stressful moment was an entirely different story. as Eren may, coincidentally, understand. thus, it's only after a pause that:]
FROM: hinata.shouyou@cdc.org
So, what. Did the instructors not even have a choice? Did they have a quota to meet?
[ what, no, shut up, she'd never care about this stupid asshole or his safety or state of being dead or not!!!!!!
Except of course she is. However sour things went between them, a piece of her still respects Eren and would like to see him not get Optimus Prime'd. ]
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Frankly? Yes.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I know that isn't the answer you want to hear, and isn't remotely the answer you'll accept!
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
8ut think a8out the alternative, Eren. Right now, when all the instructors are already pissed that so many people failed.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I know it sucks. 8elieve it or not, I pro8a8ly 8eat you out on the rage meter when I first found out what was going on.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Or do you have a 8etter idea?
Except of course she is. However sour things went between them, a piece of her still respects Eren and would like to see him not get Optimus Prime'd. ]
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Frankly? Yes.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I know that isn't the answer you want to hear, and isn't remotely the answer you'll accept!
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
8ut think a8out the alternative, Eren. Right now, when all the instructors are already pissed that so many people failed.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I know it sucks. 8elieve it or not, I pro8a8ly 8eat you out on the rage meter when I first found out what was going on.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Or do you have a 8etter idea?
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
gone wrong for us or gone wrong for them
[Rhetorical, mostly, because neither one of them has enough information to do more than grasp at straws and keep themselves alive, right now.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
that announcement came down from HQ
[The evac order that came screaming in. And it's not often they get direct orders from the CDC instead of having them filtered through the instructors. For all the trouble it's probably going to give them in turn, some part of him takes some spiteful satisfaction in the idea that the bastards up top could be having trouble, too.]
gone wrong for us or gone wrong for them
[Rhetorical, mostly, because neither one of them has enough information to do more than grasp at straws and keep themselves alive, right now.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
that announcement came down from HQ
[The evac order that came screaming in. And it's not often they get direct orders from the CDC instead of having them filtered through the instructors. For all the trouble it's probably going to give them in turn, some part of him takes some spiteful satisfaction in the idea that the bastards up top could be having trouble, too.]
[There's a whole lot of people counting on Eren not to get himself Optimus Prime'd. And it's a testament to how seriously he takes that responsibility that he hasn't made more waves, gotten himself chucked out the nearest airlock or at the nearest mountain. A crash course in playing the long game.
But it's killing him, running cracks through his restraint and his principles and his foundations and probably what passes for his damn sanity. (Such as it was at the start.)
It's not the answer he wants to hear, not the one he's going to accept. He doesn't have any better ideas, because they are just that powerless in the face of it, their enemy is just that far away, just that out of reach. And the places he usually turns for better ideas are either gone (Armin. Levi.) or they've been telling him the same damn thing Vriska is. For months.
(How long are they supposed to wait?)
The growing silence between texts is tense. Maybe a little worrisome. It's been a long day, and the resounding nothing they can do about this has hit him hard.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I won't forget it
[Whatever this is really for, it's meant to make an impression. A threat or a warning, a display of power. He won't forget it. No matter how long they have to wait and sit and take it. It's an injustice he'll pay back a thousandfold as soon as he has half a chance. For every one of their comrades who'd been wronged, (kidnapped, tortured, killed,) on the whims of their employers.]
But it's killing him, running cracks through his restraint and his principles and his foundations and probably what passes for his damn sanity. (Such as it was at the start.)
It's not the answer he wants to hear, not the one he's going to accept. He doesn't have any better ideas, because they are just that powerless in the face of it, their enemy is just that far away, just that out of reach. And the places he usually turns for better ideas are either gone (Armin. Levi.) or they've been telling him the same damn thing Vriska is. For months.
(How long are they supposed to wait?)
The growing silence between texts is tense. Maybe a little worrisome. It's been a long day, and the resounding nothing they can do about this has hit him hard.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I won't forget it
[Whatever this is really for, it's meant to make an impression. A threat or a warning, a display of power. He won't forget it. No matter how long they have to wait and sit and take it. It's an injustice he'll pay back a thousandfold as soon as he has half a chance. For every one of their comrades who'd been wronged, (kidnapped, tortured, killed,) on the whims of their employers.]
[ It's the silence that catches her up.
Eren at a loss for words is something of a marvel. He rants and raves and yells and vents his feelings and generally isn't very quiet about anything he ever does. This is strange. It's unnerving. She doesn't like it.
She likes even less that seeing him like this makes her a little unhappy. ]
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
This is really getting to you, isn't it.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I know you won't forget it. The truth is that I also know you're not actually an idiot.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
You're a good person. So I know this must 8e eating you alive! Especially with your whole justice thing.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Look. I know I have 8een really shitty to you for a long time, and you haven't really deserved it? It's not like I don't get why you act the way you do.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
So I'm sorry for 8eing such a 8itch to you all this time.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
You'll get through this, Eren. Just like you've gotten through everything else.
Eren at a loss for words is something of a marvel. He rants and raves and yells and vents his feelings and generally isn't very quiet about anything he ever does. This is strange. It's unnerving. She doesn't like it.
She likes even less that seeing him like this makes her a little unhappy. ]
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
This is really getting to you, isn't it.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
I know you won't forget it. The truth is that I also know you're not actually an idiot.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
You're a good person. So I know this must 8e eating you alive! Especially with your whole justice thing.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
Look. I know I have 8een really shitty to you for a long time, and you haven't really deserved it? It's not like I don't get why you act the way you do.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
So I'm sorry for 8eing such a 8itch to you all this time.
FROM: serket.vriska@cdc.org
You'll get through this, Eren. Just like you've gotten through everything else.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
my bet is for them
FROM: parker@cdc.org
maybe it's related to the punishment list
FROM: parker@cdc.org
yeah. i have a feeling we might have more of those lately.
[ It's a feeling called Honey. ]
my bet is for them
FROM: parker@cdc.org
maybe it's related to the punishment list
FROM: parker@cdc.org
yeah. i have a feeling we might have more of those lately.
[ It's a feeling called Honey. ]
FROM: hange.zoe@cdc.org
It looks like evacuation is under way. Do your job and make sure you get to the rendezvous point safely.
FROM: hange.zoe@cdc.org
I want you to notify me when you reach the rendezvous, and when you reach the Neheda.
FROM: hange.zoe@cdc.org
I'll see you then.
It looks like evacuation is under way. Do your job and make sure you get to the rendezvous point safely.
FROM: hange.zoe@cdc.org
I want you to notify me when you reach the rendezvous, and when you reach the Neheda.
FROM: hange.zoe@cdc.org
I'll see you then.
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Understood, ma'am.
[Something is up. You don't evacuate without warning unless something's gone wrong.
And, just in case—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Mikasa's still in stasis. [Hopefully. Because she's not here.] I'll let you know if anything comes up.
Understood, ma'am.
[Something is up. You don't evacuate without warning unless something's gone wrong.
And, just in case—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Mikasa's still in stasis. [Hopefully. Because she's not here.] I'll let you know if anything comes up.
[Why IC file when he can just hassle you about it.
And because this thread has gone on in a serious vein for long enough, the answer she gets takes a little deciphering.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
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[Either she's set him off into an incoherent rage, or Tadashi's cat has decided to crawl into his lap while he tries to type back at her and smashed his fingers against the letters. (It's the latter.)]
And because this thread has gone on in a serious vein for long enough, the answer she gets takes a little deciphering.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
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[Either she's set him off into an incoherent rage, or Tadashi's cat has decided to crawl into his lap while he tries to type back at her and smashed his fingers against the letters. (It's the latter.)]
[ ...... ???????? ]
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
if i actually made you mad you can just use capslock like a normal person you know
FROM: misaka.mikoto@cdc.org
if i actually made you mad you can just use capslock like a normal person you know
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