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FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
whether or not they concern themselves with it doesn't have anything to do with you
[Just because it's been determined for you doesn't mean you have to settle for it. And it sure as hell doesn't mean it can't be changed if you find a way. The best way to keep that from happening is never to try. Through fear, or weakness, ignorance or inaction.
(He's as guilty of it here as anyone in the crew. He can't make a move without putting his home on the chopping block. That doesn't mean he's accepted that that's the way things have to be forever.)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
don't you care at all
whether or not they concern themselves with it doesn't have anything to do with you
[Just because it's been determined for you doesn't mean you have to settle for it. And it sure as hell doesn't mean it can't be changed if you find a way. The best way to keep that from happening is never to try. Through fear, or weakness, ignorance or inaction.
(He's as guilty of it here as anyone in the crew. He can't make a move without putting his home on the chopping block. That doesn't mean he's accepted that that's the way things have to be forever.)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
don't you care at all
[ November hadn't even expected this of himself. So that makes the two of them. ]
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
yeah yeah
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
i dont really need to be good
just willing to freeze things to death
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
yeah yeah
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
i dont really need to be good
just willing to freeze things to death
[Woah, it almost sounds like you're busy feeling sorry for yourself, November.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
is that what you think
[His patience is rapidly running out. Choose your answer carefully.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
is that what you think
[His patience is rapidly running out. Choose your answer carefully.]
[ he hasn't done that in a while cut him some slack??? ]
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
not really, since im not thinking much at all
though thats pretty obvious
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
not really, since im not thinking much at all
though thats pretty obvious
[He'll cut you some slack when you aren't getting sloshed while they're stuck in shithole spooktown. Time and a place and all, sorry.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
yeah
[it is.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
yeah
[it is.]
FROM: 11.november@cdc.org
thanks for the advice
[ you're the worst ]
thanks for the advice
[ you're the worst ]
[Nothing but time on their hands, lately. So, in short order—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Yes, ma'am.
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
Yes, ma'am.
[It's a difficult question. Luciola cared... but he also had a fatalistic streak a mile wide, and care... it did little in the end to change the things that had happened in his own life, let alone others.]
FROM: luciola@cdc.org
Unfortunately, my care does little.
FROM: luciola@cdc.org
Unfortunately, my care does little.
[Ah, yes. Fatalism. There are certainly faster ways to rub Eren the wrong way, but that's still a pretty good one.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
keep thinking that way and that won't ever change
[The best way to make sure you fail is to convince yourself never to try at all.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
keep thinking that way and that won't ever change
[The best way to make sure you fail is to convince yourself never to try at all.]
[That sounds like something a quitter would say, Luciola.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
if you give up and accept things the way they are, then you're always going to be powerless
[Needless to say, he doesn't believe in that. No matter what the circumstances are—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
it doesn't have to be that way forever
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
if you give up and accept things the way they are, then you're always going to be powerless
[Needless to say, he doesn't believe in that. No matter what the circumstances are—]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
it doesn't have to be that way forever
FROM: parker@cdc.org
guess we're sticking together.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
heard anything about the prospector?
guess we're sticking together.
FROM: parker@cdc.org
heard anything about the prospector?
[???????
Amber he is busy being very intently aggravated over Honey right now, don't do the cryptic thing to him.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what
Amber he is busy being very intently aggravated over Honey right now, don't do the cryptic thing to him.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what
[Ah. No, it really isn't. And yet.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
she's not giving us a choice
[Besides letting the CDC take a "retirement fee" out upon his refusal. And that's not a choice at all.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
she's not giving us a choice
[Besides letting the CDC take a "retirement fee" out upon his refusal. And that's not a choice at all.]
[That's a cute sentiment, Amber. He huffs a breath out in a scoff behind the text. Yeah, sure, maybe Honey believes in him. Seems more likely she's just trying to get rid of him. Like hell she'll have luck on that front. He's too stubborn to give up easy. Still, the day's upheaval has him wrong-footed, aggravated, apprehensive.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what does red team even do
[Spec Ops. He'd given the dry database a read over, but things are always different in practice. And as a team, they'd always been selectively secretive. He hadn't much cared to pry. He's on the roster, now.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
what does red team even do
[Spec Ops. He'd given the dry database a read over, but things are always different in practice. And as a team, they'd always been selectively secretive. He hadn't much cared to pry. He's on the roster, now.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
guess so
[Red Team. He can't speak for her, but it's not remotely where he'd expected to end up any time soon. At least if they're boned, they're boned together. A smallish measure of continuity in this whole weird shakeup, amazing.
He thinks about pursuing the subject—(Red Team???)—but she gets to the Prospector, first. There'll plenty of time to question Honey's decisions later.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
just by name until now. mikasa asked honey about him.
[There are probably other mentions in the post, but it's a crowded one, and he's still working his way through it. (He's watching that particular conversation a little more sharply, and not just because of the information being divulged. Eren is not as obvious as Mikasa about their weird-ass relationship but that doesn't mean he won't bare his teeth against anything that dares to threaten her.)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
sounds like he makes the call about whether or not they're gonna scrap a planet
guess so
[Red Team. He can't speak for her, but it's not remotely where he'd expected to end up any time soon. At least if they're boned, they're boned together. A smallish measure of continuity in this whole weird shakeup, amazing.
He thinks about pursuing the subject—(Red Team???)—but she gets to the Prospector, first. There'll plenty of time to question Honey's decisions later.]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
just by name until now. mikasa asked honey about him.
[There are probably other mentions in the post, but it's a crowded one, and he's still working his way through it. (He's watching that particular conversation a little more sharply, and not just because of the information being divulged. Eren is not as obvious as Mikasa about their weird-ass relationship but that doesn't mean he won't bare his teeth against anything that dares to threaten her.)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
sounds like he makes the call about whether or not they're gonna scrap a planet
[To be honest, that's something of a relief. Because Eren's changed a lot in the CDC, maybe not entirely for the better. Learned a lot and adjusted a lot and survived this long because he's bowed his head enough to follow orders, but not that much. He might be bad at covert ops and subtlety by nature, but he'd vehemently draw the line at snitching (or killing his comrades) for the CDC, and he's fast running out of authority figures to talk sense into him.
(Jean's on yellow, though. There's a clench in his gut that he pushes down to answer—)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
no.
[It's more concerning as an overall bad news for the crew that Honey's taking the reins at all. He never tends to get overly worried over himself. Even when he probably should be. There's still enough on Red's roster he's bristling at. (Assassinations, on order. It's not that Eren hasn't killed before, doesn't see it as necessary or justified, sometimes. But the justified part is important to him.)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I didn't make it this far to go belly up
[Planets have died so that he could keep living. That's all useless if he gives up now.]
(Jean's on yellow, though. There's a clench in his gut that he pushes down to answer—)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
no.
[It's more concerning as an overall bad news for the crew that Honey's taking the reins at all. He never tends to get overly worried over himself. Even when he probably should be. There's still enough on Red's roster he's bristling at. (Assassinations, on order. It's not that Eren hasn't killed before, doesn't see it as necessary or justified, sometimes. But the justified part is important to him.)]
FROM: jaeger.eren@cdc.org
I didn't make it this far to go belly up
[Planets have died so that he could keep living. That's all useless if he gives up now.]
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