01 That's 8ecause it is complete 8ullshit, Eren. 8ut that doesn't make it any less true!
[ But his second text completely holds her up. Enough to make her lower her communicator and stare at the ceiling of the medical tent for several minutes in contemplative silence. It's something she's wondered herself, from time to time. At least at home, the consequences of death were real and constant. Banishment to the Furthest Ring and a total inability to interact with the world of the living except obliquely, except by freak chance - those had been shackles she'd chafed against every second of every moment of the infinite span of eternity. The consequences for fucking up and letting Terezi kill her had been palpable then.
Now ... what difference did it make? From day one she's interacted with the living, moved and worked and fought alongside them, from the moment she'd told that recruiter yes. It was like the day she signed up with the CDC, all the consequences that came with dying had been voided. The punishments lifted. If it looks like it's alive, and talks like it's alive--
Is it alive?
All she's got to show for her ghosty state now is her stupid eyes and the fact that she doesn't technically need to breathe. Or eat. Or sleep. Or mundane shit like that. But she's no longer held back by being dead.
And even now she's not sure why, or what that really means. ]
02 That is a good question, though. And I have thought a8out it a lot. 8ack home, there were real consequences for dying. Mostly in that I was 8arred from ever interacting with the living, except in very special circumstances!
03 8ut that is not the case here. I am pretty certain I'm the only dead person around here. You know, like, actively dead or whatever. 8ut it's like it doesn't matter!
04 I don't know whether I feel relieved or unnerved.
05 I have always 8een one for 8r8king rules, but this was one I was never a8le to 8r8k on my own. What does it say that not only could the CDC completely circumvent it, 8ut do it so easily?
06 It feels sort of pedantic to insist on this stuff now, but there are other things that set me apart. I don't need to sleep, or eat, or even breathe. I do all of those things, 8ut really only 8ecause I want to, and it's familiar.
07 8ut for all other intents and purposes, you are right. I might as well 8e alive.
08 When you've 8een dead for as long as I have, that is kind of a 8ig fucking deal! I guess I don't really know how to handle it. I don't think a8out it a lot.
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That's 8ecause it is complete 8ullshit, Eren. 8ut that doesn't make it any less true!
[ But his second text completely holds her up. Enough to make her lower her communicator and stare at the ceiling of the medical tent for several minutes in contemplative silence. It's something she's wondered herself, from time to time. At least at home, the consequences of death were real and constant. Banishment to the Furthest Ring and a total inability to interact with the world of the living except obliquely, except by freak chance - those had been shackles she'd chafed against every second of every moment of the infinite span of eternity. The consequences for fucking up and letting Terezi kill her had been palpable then.
Now ... what difference did it make? From day one she's interacted with the living, moved and worked and fought alongside them, from the moment she'd told that recruiter yes. It was like the day she signed up with the CDC, all the consequences that came with dying had been voided. The punishments lifted. If it looks like it's alive, and talks like it's alive--
Is it alive?
All she's got to show for her ghosty state now is her stupid eyes and the fact that she doesn't technically need to breathe. Or eat. Or sleep. Or mundane shit like that. But she's no longer held back by being dead.
And even now she's not sure why, or what that really means. ]
02
That is a good question, though. And I have thought a8out it a lot. 8ack home, there were real consequences for dying. Mostly in that I was 8arred from ever interacting with the living, except in very special circumstances!
03
8ut that is not the case here. I am pretty certain I'm the only dead person around here. You know, like, actively dead or whatever. 8ut it's like it doesn't matter!
04
I don't know whether I feel relieved or unnerved.
05
I have always 8een one for 8r8king rules, but this was one I was never a8le to 8r8k on my own. What does it say that not only could the CDC completely circumvent it, 8ut do it so easily?
06
It feels sort of pedantic to insist on this stuff now, but there are other things that set me apart. I don't need to sleep, or eat, or even breathe. I do all of those things, 8ut really only 8ecause I want to, and it's familiar.
07
8ut for all other intents and purposes, you are right. I might as well 8e alive.
08
When you've 8een dead for as long as I have, that is kind of a 8ig fucking deal! I guess I don't really know how to handle it. I don't think a8out it a lot.